Kumbh

It was mouni amavasya and Mali was still in Pune, he tried moving ahead from there but he couldn’t. He got the news in the night that night has left its colours and now he got the clue that now it’s his time to go because he thinks he is the crow and crow reach in the end to touch the food kept on death so souls could enter another dimension.

Mali started looking for bus tickets he couldn’t get one, he also looked for trains but couldn’t reach, flights was out of the budget. He was still waiting it was 3rd of feb , he couldn’t find any ticket on the next 4 th feb he was looking for tickets for 5 th but unfortunately he booked tickets for same day and when he realised that he has booked ticket of today and it just 1:30 he more to go so he just stopped for 2 mins and started thinking why contemporary till it was not booking and if got booked the just next hour, he couldn’t understand anything but he thought he shouldn’t loose this chance he instantly started packing things, while packing till he leaves the house one question was continuously haunting him that weather he should carry phone or not, at that time he was thinking this things as weapon for wealth but burden for freedom.. 

and it was a big question mark if front of him if he didn’t carry it is goona be different if he carries he thinks he goona get burden. Just in floting moment I just packed all the weapons in the bag with tears in eyes. It was my gun Fuji film xt4 with 16 - 80 f4. Another was new buddy marshal killburn 2 and my all time fav jbl flip 6 There is no more time he just takes it and books the auto to go bus stop while closing the door he remembered the night of 31st where he thought about not wearing chappals so he takes that decision and walks barefoot. 

Reached the bus stop driver saw me and puts his eyes straight into my eyes and says Aadesh with huge voice and so much or respect I didn’t get that ,something respected he said and I don’t how to reply it I was know but I was not confirmed that I have say aadesh back so I kept hand on my chest and showed respectful gestures but when I sat in a bus and searched I got to know that I have say aadesh back which kept me haunting but he aadesh gave me confirmation that I am on right direction.

I could literally feel the transition While travelling of from no respect towards people calling me baba and felt respected even distance was same.. at least I am feeling the change.

From the good connection with drivers and over all the journey was good 

At last I reached It was 11 clock in night I got the down the bus driver saw and said chalo milte hai babaji and without a missing a fraction of seconds I replied Aadesh …

I came on the smoking cigarette seeing here and there so many people moving fast here and there police staring me as usual even some people, yellow lights on the street don’t feel like it’s midnight, I crossed and went rickshaw to ask for ride for sangam.

He said sit but you have to walk for 4 km from where I drop I sat in rikshaw and driver said let just wait for more customers, I said okay, next min one 50 year old man’s in orange clothes arrives with his wife who was in same bus asks for ride to someones ashram at aarel ghat, rikshaw drive offers me that if you go to aarel you will not need to walk, mostly I choose things which comes from front so I Said yes okay, As way is taking me ahead I am not taking much decisions, 

We sit in rikshaw I sit in front with driver and they both sit back rikshaw stars and In few minutes voice come from behind asking me “Babaji where are you from ?” This was first time someone said me Babaji for first time in real life, I replied Maharashtra and then he asked kya karte ho I said “raste pe nritya karta hu, he appreciated and said I want to see it I said why not, he tells driver to stop the rikshaw side, As soon rikshaw stop I get on the road starts my speaker and starts dancing on namo namo shiva song, people on the road started saying and the man without missing a second he starts recording rikshaw driver asks for my phone to record and it was my performance in Prayag before I reach 

That man remove hundreds rupees and keeps in my hand and rikshaw driver becomes my huge fan gives 10 rs “ Dhanda chalu “ I could literally feel the energy and acceptance to my aura.. 

we dropped and that person at his location and went to aarel ghat I removed same hundred and gave it to driver. He took some pictures with me which I really felt good.

I went to aarel ghat it 12:30 in the night still so many of people entering and exiting, so many people rest on the floor with there cumble in cold. I don’t know what to do now a big question mark because It was night + I traveled and now I need some rest and It’s too cold to sit out, still some people were taking dip, I went near the water sitting on stair, looking here and there some people around me resting clicking pictures of Ganga and many more 

As I don’t know what to do I just turn on my speaker and start dancing slowly first no one gave value but in sometime one beggars arrived touched my feet twice ketp 10 rupees seeing him doing people around felt something and started looking at my dance and taking footage got some more money and In just 15 min I stopped because I couldn’t do it anymore I was tired because of travel. Now I just wanted good sleep But I don’t know where too as It was confirmed that I am not staying there because It was too cold that night, but where should I go, 

I kept seating their because I was not have more stamina in some time that beggar arrived again and asked where you will go? I was like don’t know, he said wait here I will get a blanket for you.. I was like okay. He went I was waiting there and more that 10 mins gone he was not still here I thought If I wait more and If he doesn’t come I will die in this cold, I thought let’s just go somewhere, as soon as I get up and start walking he arrives and where are you going Babaji, come here and he puts clothes on the floor and tell me to sit there and gives me blanket and says sit I will get some tea. Instantly I removed 20 rs and gave him for tea. 

He got tea we started taking and we shared a blanket and slept that night I couldn’t sleep as it was cold And I was having expensive gadgets my weapons camera phone speaker every thing because of that I couldn’t sleep still I got cozy enough but the thought that there are thousands of people around and if I sleep there person near me takes my things and run then, I don’t know so somehow holding my bag in my hand I slept and when I woke up that beggar was not near me I checked all my stuff It was all there but just I thought where he went .. 

ohh yaa he begging next Side I noticed 

Now I was busy I just felt I am sleeping on busy street in middle yaa everyone was just walking around me as always I don’t know what to do I turned on the speaker and started dancing and It was on … 

While I was dancing he was here I danced for while collected some none and was sitting down with him again and thinking what to do while just deciding I took my stuff and we were just walking and we kept on walking on ghat seeing things, people, 

We met one baba who approached me for money and I Said baba is asking to baba?

I am also just like you I perform on street He offers me to come to akhada I just smiled but he wanted me to take a tea at least when I said him the same you buy tea for he was just ready for that he was yaa let’s go we went we had tea Even though he was paying I paid it, 

But in that few min we talked about each other journey and he told He is on this line because he wants make his sister marry and he Said, I want to do it any how & if I just be here, kumbh is gonna make huge contributions… 

Yaa we went front and we walked for a while and then I told him, I need to go to check out some ashram to stay… I will see you, 

After listening to this he got little sad but yaa he didn’t show that rather he said will meet again … 

I went out on road I checked 2 ashrams 

But yaa that was not my place I could smell it before I enter but I still entered there was a lawn and there were all the people wearing lungi and good clean shirt and it is a clean environment but I didn’t feel right it was like something unreal it was like garden which has no dried leaves I was like black dried leave entering in ha ha. I asked one them who were standing the and and talking , they were young foreigners who are staying there and following the rules that’s what I can see, I asked them I want to enter this ashram what can I do What is the process, where is the reception he was like there is no reception yaa but where is the entrance or office of this place please show me he told me to go out and showed me the way to main entrance 

as soon as I entered the guard dressed like police stopped me and asked where are you going, I said to samadhi, he asked me what you do? I answered I dance he was like this things are not allowed here just go to samadhi and come back.. I was like okay… I went in to the main area near samadhi area there few people who were truths of that place, like people who don’t have hand or leg that people realised that I am here as they saw me they were have you had food I was like no the showed me the way to eat food but it was not the same place this was completely opposite here all dried leaves where having food … I was thinking why there is divide in this place still I had food and it was not that great but I had it while I was throwing plate I just realised that someone just stopped beside me and looking at me when I saw him he was just stopped looking at me smiling just like he saw someone who is free whe wants to meet, for that sec he gets lost in me his friend pushes him and now let’s goo ,

They were good looking and from the bright garden but came to this dining to eat with dried leaves as in true people where there in no luxury food….

I sat with the people around outside the mess

In while then left the aashram 

I don’t know but I felt locked inside 

I came out and and realised we are better at ghat … I went back ghat and saw that beggar is sitting there and laughing at me 

I went to him and we were roming together and suddenly one Naga , one sadhu were sitting together and they were taking bhiksha they saw me and called me on their Assan and they told beggar to stay away from me and to leave from here … 

They made a space for me with respect I sat there I really felt bad that pushed beggar like that but yaa they are making money and giving aashirwad to people and they don’t want person near them who doesn’t bath so they told him to go, 

I sat with those baba we were smoking chilam continuously people were coming and praying baba, In sometime people started praying me as well they sarted putting bhiksha infront of me as well like rice, money etc. this Naga baba was very real, his was very conscious looks like Maruti, he used to give very bad words confidently to the people who he feels are not real … and he used to not take their bhiksha… this Naga was having balance of emotions where he sometime get anger, sometimes he just accepts everything.., 

Another Sadhu was Sandip Nath who was young from Indore, do seva in Ujjain and now in pryaj raj, 

All the people coming and putting grains in front of baba and suddenly one women put on front of me and think what dhanda chalu (business) has started, people started talking blessing just felt like I was ready to give.

This was little different line where you sit as baba people after bath comes to do some Dan dharam ( donate ₹, rice .. ) to us,

I was sitting in a group of people where

There was one naga, one sadhu, numerological person, Mala wala baba, fakir , they started calling me dancer baba. 

It was very hard to keep the trust on each other we all were traveler’s meet at Kumbha, where some one came to sell the weed some one just to spend time some to change way.. etc keeping the trust was like yaa can’t say, because there where thousands of people are roaming around someone can just take your things and can vanish in just seconds, after some time got to know is that it’s not just me but everyone is equally sacared but fakir was not because he was not having anything and just used to sit if some used to give money he used to return it…

I started keeping trust little little on everyone, I went to pee then came fast my all the stuff was there and then Little little trust increased in the especially Sandip Nath who I felt like true soul .. on his face I trusted little bit and I use go around to bring tea because I cannot carry everything every time because it is a symbol of distrust for the poor who you are sitting with soo yaa .

This cycle was little hard but beautiful as we earn there, we give 50 rs to mala wala who itself is in our group and tell him to make one chilam, some people donate blankets and some biscuits it was so random and we used give different blessings sometimes funny sometimes good sometimes very harsh 

In the night I, fakir and Sandip Nath we were smoking and playing music and begging till late so ashram got closed so no food, Sandip Nath said let’s go to street hotels and ask for food in bhiksha… we went to first only hotel and we got it because of sandipnaths asking skills he was like chalo bhai bhole ka wakt hoga ya hai khana laga do … they gave us plate and parcels our food which was best thing 

We went had food, Sandip Nath gave me place in kutti shifting other people made a place for me to sleep also I used the blanket which I got in bhiksha, kept phones inside the pant and slept little peacefully till morning next day morning again the same thing we all opened our shop of blessing as Naga was missing he went somewhere in the night and never returned… next day Sandipnath and me opened the shop where I used to dance and he used to give tikka on forehead … 

The way Sandipnath use to promote me was very funny he used to say “ maaye isko bhi daal de ye dancer baba hai Bambai seee””

From the next day Sandipnath and me got little in routine we had good trust we use to wake up go near water open our shop over there give blessing when people just took bant and put tikka .. 

Rome here and there with our materials and open our shop wherever we feel take dip eat anywhere in night go to ashram for having food sitting in line of babas ya we did this for next three days and on the third day in my bhiksha as in in rice I got one rudraaksh and It was a big symbol that my time has come to go from here also Sandipnath said baba tumhar wakt aagaya it 

The message was clear with the jewel = Manikarnika Varanasi 

That night I tried to go out of the prayaj but I couldn’t even reach other side so I came back Sandipnath was waiting and Smiled when he saw me back 

Next day I took a dip with rudraksh and Tried to go but still all of these emotions and comfort zone which had become here was holding me there but on the next day I some of white the gut feeling I walked straight Eight kilometres and made my way to other side it was hard but yaa went near sangam didn’t took bath, then directly went to railway station walking and yaa it was evening caught the train for Varanasi… usually it takes 1:30. To reach Varanasi on that day it was extremely crowded and it took 7 hours to reach varanasi 

Mai kabhi bus aage nhi badte raha mai kabhi yaha tho kabhi waha kabhi wapis tho kabhi jaga pe 

Never just go ahead, go here, go left, go back, stay at the place…

Aadesh